Iqrar Nama

Jazbat ko lafzon me utarna hamesha se mushkil hota he q k jazbat lafzon k ghulam ne hote aur lafz aksar jazbat se aari hote hain. Insan ko kuch cheeze kabhi ne bholti pehli chot, pehli barish, pehla pyar aur pehli har :). Shaied dil phaink hone k sath sath ik khas umar tk main jazbati kamzori ka shikar rha aur bhool gya k pehli mohabat umar k faraq ki tarah hoti he chah k b bhulai ne jaskti, q k wo insan ka asal hota he us k bad ik khas pehr pe ihsas hota he k mard k khameer me mohabat ne he aur agar he to ishq wo bhi uski zat se aur belos, khair shaied jazbat abhi kache the, fidwi naya naya jawan tha aur shaied andhera kafi ziada to usme jahan roshni nazar ayi mohabat ker betha- Sid, shaied wo thi andhere me roshni ki kiran, zindagi me mukamal rishta kya hota he maine us se seekha, roshni kya hoti he, himat kise kehte hain, jang kese larte hain yeh cheeze maine usi se sekhi- Kitabi bate ik taraf per wo haqeeqtan ik taluq tha jo k na to bojh tha aur na to bhool, jis me insan na uktata he aur na thakta, jis me apa banu ki seemi k se andhese bhi the aur qayumi ka self created depression bhi, We started up in mid 2006, us k bad shaied ik dosre ki zat ka hisa ban gye, pehli mohabat insan k zehan aur roh ko qaid ker leti he aur us k bad wo jis k sath ho us k sath b ne hota us k paimane absolute se relative hojate hain, maine zindagi me shaied kissi ko itni shidat se kissi ko chahte, mante aur us k liye Allah se zid ker k falah mangte ne dekha shaied aurat k khameer me wafa he :). Lekin ye jo log likhne likhane, aur zindagi k raz ya khoj k safar pe nikalte hain inka almia he k yeh kabhi bhi apni zat ki daryaft kissi ko bta ne skte aur shaied yehi waja he k pehle wafa pe unglian uthti hain aur phr depression ki goli rishte ka seena chak ker deti hai shaied mere sath bhi yehi hua, q k jab maine rishte ko apni miraj pe dekha to use apna asal samjha betha aur ye sochne laga k asal se kya chupa he waqt na bhi dein, cheeze na bhi btae wo samjh jayege per ye bhool betha k insan jese jese kissi cheez k qareeb jata he uski barikian use nazar ati jati hain aur yehi waja he k ik darar b chak bna deti he pehle waqt pe shikwe phir forgranted k tane aur phir rishta ik aise mor pe jise bojh lagne laga aur phir ik lambi khamoshi, mujhe tab bht shidat se ihsas hua k kissi bhi rishte me khamoshi ajaye to wo rishte ko deemak ki tarah chat jati he. Khair us k bad maine farar k raste dhondhe aur khud ko ye samjha dia k uski zindagi se nikal jao to behtar he per shaied insan kabhi b apne asal se nae bhag paya …. per agar kuch cheeze iqrar kerni pare to main sar-e-dar ye kahoga k han usne mujhse lafz mohabat se bhi ziada mohabat ki, han usne mujhe wo bna dia jo aj main hun, han chunao k lamhe me aksar main dagmagaya magar usne rishte ki pakezgi aur nafs k amal ko kabhi rishte me na ane dia, han main ye manta hun k usne mujhe wo tamam rishte ik shakal me diye jiski mujhe waqt pe zarorat thi, han mujh usne girne se bachaya, han meri khamoshi ne wajood aur taluq dono ko bht nuqsan pohnchaya han mere farar ne mujhe mere asal ka maqroz ker dia aur han main ghalat tha – Shaied agar ana ko qaid kerlia jata aur chezo ko samjh lia jata to ye rishta kabhi bojh na banta,

Na koi chaj, te na koi wal si
Pehla ishq te pehli gal si
bekhabri wich tehni tut gayi
KAche Rukh ote kacha phal si

shaied na mujhe koi rasm maloom thi na koi tareeqa pehli mohabat aur wo bhi pehli bar thi, mujhe pata bhi ne chala kab tehni tot gayi aur us k rukh pe phal bhi abhi kacha tha

Socha tha bht toot k chahege tujhe hum - Chaha bhi bht jana,tote bhi bht hum

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Haider Miraj
11:51 Pm
22/8/11

This is a personal experience and shared on a personal blog so difference of opinion must exist.

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Muhammad Haider Miraj

A person on the journey of self exploration & learning/development. Time and pain have been my teachers and mentor they made me believe that whatsoever happens, happens for the reason - its gives you learning and add value to yourself. Nature and Spirit helped me connecting within and connect the dots to enhance and and enrich the Faith. Aksr lafz insan ko khokhla bna dete hain jab insan kahe kuch aur .........kere kuch aur..... shaied main b khokhla hogya aur khud ki shanakht se bhagne wale kisi ko shanakht ne de skte. Shaied jo ap parhe wo ap ki zat ka ansar bhi hun q k hain to hum sab ik k hi jaye bus ab khaul mukhtalif pehn liye hain aur ye tehreerein khol walo k liye ne humare asal k liye hain. Duaon ka talib Haider Miraj

8 thoughts on “Iqrar Nama”

  1. Insan ko kuch cheeze kabhi ne bholti pehli chot, pehli barish, pehla pyar aur pehli har 🙂

    nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

    haider kia ke dia 😥

  2. uff killer!! youn mehsoos hota hai k kisi novel ka page parh rahi hoon!
    SIR ap baap hain sirf likhaari k nahi balkeh vo sab kehnay k jo sach hai lekin bohat saray mardon say kabool nahi hota…
    *salute*

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