And my forehead was kissed

She was sitting on the bench by the side of the road, staring at the cars passing by. She had a weird look on her face, although was smiling softly but her eyes were so hollow, a little wet. That interested me so I went over to her.

“Are you addicted to something?” I asked, this rude question came out as a reflex.

Her pale, ordinary face filled with a warm smile, her eyes still hollow. She did not say anything for few seconds while my curiosity increased. That look on her face interested me so much: she seemed so satisfied, yet tortured at the same time. At last she spoke.

“Yes” smile again

“To what? Cocaine?” I frowned.

“To…” long pause – “Pain” smile again. I started at her, she seemed sensible enough but God what non-sense is she blabbing. I thought.
“What do you mean?” this was my last attempt to get her story out of her.
“Pain is a drug. The most powerful one. It enters your blood with a prick, without any withdrawal symptoms and takes over your whole system. And in no time you get addicted to it, it gives you pleasure. You know it’s killing you but you love it so you let it take over you. You cut off all hope with your own hands. You leave all the people who love you; you wish they never happened to you. That is what it feels like to be in love with pain” It shocked me how she was telling her story of being tortured without even a pinch of sadness.

“So what next? What happens after that?” I inquired

“That’s pretty much your choice – Either you spend your life whining and letting the grief of the loved one who left, people who didn’t treat you well, fighting God, opportunities you never had, looking for peace, a miracle that would sort things out….Or you could say “Ok God, I trust you and I love you. People and circumstances will not treat me well but I will find a way to fight my way back because I’m breathing and you must’ve assigned me some work to do…so let’s get that done”. That is the only cure for this lust of pain – I’m trying to do that and it’s so exhausting at times, but I’m trying not to give up and live my life. I cry, I fall apart but then I collect myself and move on” her maturity impressed me.

“You’ve learnt a lot in such a young age – You are blessed my child” I kissed her forehead and waved the bus to stop. . I was thinking as I stepped in the bus. Truly the most tortured souls are the blessed ones. They bear light in themselves.”

Via Anonymous

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Before you quote ‘I’ – Know your ‘I’

In past few days I have been coming across various aspect and perspectives about self discovery. At times we dont believe on masks we wear the mask so that we could fake it, till we make it or we are hurt by others, either we dont value what we have or we are fighting sor something We want either we dont feel anything or we feel too much. In this entire scenario I think we need to hold on for a moment – take ourself on a date – travel and connect within – Identify who we are and trust me world wont be that hard on you but untill unless you dont know ‘I’, dont fight for ‘I’ – Here it goes few one about Journey within

1. “I can teach anybody how to get what they want out of life. The problem is that I can’t find anybody who can tell me what they want.” – Mark Twain

2. “I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.” – Henry David Thoreau

3. “There is no satisfaction that can compare with looking back across the years and finding you’ve grown in self-control, judgment, generosity, and unselfishness.” – Ella Wheeler Wilcox

4. “People often say that this or that person has not yet found himself. But the self is not something one finds, it is something one creates.” – Thomas Szasz

5. “It is the individual who knows how little they know about themselves who stands the most reasonable chance of finding out something about themselves before they die.” – S. I. Hayakawa

6. “If you don’t get lost, there’s a chance you may never be found.” – Anonymous

7. “There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that’s your own self.” – Aldous Huxley

8. “The greatest explorer on this earth never takes voyages as long as those of the man who descends to the depth of his heart.” – Julien Green

9. “I think somehow we learn who we really are and then we live with that decision.” – Eleanor Roosevelt

10. “Why should we honour those that die upon the field of battle? A man may show as reckless a courage in entering into the abyss of himself.” – William Butler Yeats

11. “For most men life is a search for the proper manila envelope in which to get themselves filed.” – Clifton Fadiman

12. “The searching-out and thorough investigation of truth ought to be the primary study of man.” – Cicero

13. “I know well what I am fleeing from but not what I am in search of.” – Michel de Montaigne

14. “There are three things extremely hard: steel, a diamond, and to know one’s self.” – Benjamin Franklin

15. “You cannot dream yourself into a character; you must hammer and forge yourself one.” – James A. Froude

16. “A man travels the world over in search of what he needs and returns home to find it.” – George Moore

17. “Men go abroad to wonder at the heights of mountains, at the huge waves of the sea, at the long courses of the rivers, at the vast compass of the ocean, at the circular motions of the stars, and they pass by themselves without wondering.” – St. Augustine

18. “We only become what we are by the radical and deep-seated refusal of that which others have made of us.” – Jean-Paul Sartre

19. “Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves.” – Henry David Thoreau

20. “A man who finds no satisfaction in himself will seek for it in vain elsewhere.” – La Rochefoucauld

21. “There are… things which a man is afraid to tell even to himself, and every decent man has a number of such things stored away in his mind.” – Fyodor Dostoyevsky, “Notes from the Underground,” 1864

22. “Becoming conscious is of course a sacrilege against nature; it is as though you had robbed the unconscious of something.” – Carl G. Jung

23. “The well bred contradict other people. The wise contradict themselves.” – Oscar Wilde

24. “I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be.” – Douglas Adams

25. “Know yourself. Don’t accept your dog’s admiration as conclusive evidence that you are wonderful.” – Ann Landers

26. “‘Know thyself?’ If I knew myself, I’d run away.” – Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

27. “Just when I think I have learned the way to live, life changes.” – Hugh Prather

28. “You will recognize your own path when you come upon it, because you will suddenly have all the energy and imagination you will ever need.” – Jerry Gillies

29. “A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it.” – Jean de La Fontaine

30. “Man never knows what he wants; he aspires to penetrate mysteries and as soon as he has, he wants to reestablish them. Ignorance irritates him and knowledge cloys.” – Henri Frederic Amiel

31. “One must know oneself. If this does not serve to discover truth, it at least serves as a rule of life and there is nothing better.” – Blaise Pascal

32. “If you resist reading what you disagree with, how will you ever acquire deeper insights into what you believe? The things most worth reading are precisely those that challenge our convictions.” – Anonymous

33. “It is not only the most difficult thing to know oneself, but the most inconvenient one, too.” – H.W. Shaw

34. “Painting is self-discovery. Every good artist paints what he is.” – Jackson Pollock

35. “One’s own self is well hidden from one’s own self; of all mines of treasure, one’s own is the last to be dug up.” – Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

36. “One was a book I read by Mahatma Gandhi. In it was a passage where he said that religion, the pursuing of the inner journey, should not be separated from the pursuing of the outer and social journey, because we are not isolated beings.” – Satish Kumar

37. “Your work is to discover your world and then with all your heart give yourself to it.” – Buddha

38. “All wonders you seek are within yourself.” – Sir Thomas Browne

39. “The man who views the world at fifty the same as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life.” – Muhammad Ali

40. “What you discover on your own is always more exciting than what someone else discovers for you – it’s like the marriage between romantic love and an arranged marriage.” – Terrence Rafferty

41. “It’s a helluva start, being able to recognize what makes you happy.” – Lucille Ball

42. “Your vision will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.” – Carl Jung

43. “Resolve to be thyself; and know that he who finds himself, loses his misery.” – Matthew Arnold

44. “Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth.” – Oscar Wilde

45. “The only journey is the journey within.” – Rainer Maria Rilke

46. “All men should strive to learn before they die what they are running from, and to, and why.” – James Thurber

47. “Man can starve from a lack of self-realization as much as… from a lack of bread.” – Richard Wright, Native Son, 1940

48. “A man’s growth is seen in the successive choirs of his friends.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

49. “Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.” – Aristotle

50. “Like an old gold-panning prospector, you must resign yourself to digging up a lot of sand from which you will later patiently wash out a few minute particles of gold ore.” – Dorothy Bryant

Once you have your I – Go out and conquer the world because by that time you would know all – even God 🙂

Love

Rumi’s 25 – Triggers

When I was all drenched in pain and self audit – This happened to me 🙂

“Study me as much as you like, you will not know me, for I differ in a hundred ways from what you see me to be. Put yourself behind my eyes and see me as I see myself, for I have chosen to dwell in a place you cannot see.” ~ Rumi

Rumi, also known as Jalāl ad-Dīn Muhammad Balkhī, was a Sufi mystic, theologian, and Persian poet from the 13th century. His words were loaded with wisdom and power. He was truly incredible.

Below are 25 life changing lessons everyone can learn from Rumi. Hopefully they inspire you to live a more meaningful and beautiful life!

1. Stop acting so small. You are the universe in ecstatic motion.

“You were born with potential. You were born with goodness and trust. You were born with ideals and dreams. You were born with greatness. You were born with wings. You are not meant for crawling, so don’t. You have wings. Learn to use them and fly.”

“You sit here for days saying, This is strange business. You’re the strange business. You have the energy of the sun in you, but you keep knotting it up at the base of your spine. You’re some weird kind of gold that wants to stay melted in the furnace, so you won’t have to become coins.”

“Why should I stay at the bottom of a well when a strong rope is in my hand?”

“Become the sky. Take an axe to the prison wall. Escape.”

“Do you know what you are? You are a manuscript of a divine letter. You are a mirror reflecting a noble face. This universe is not outside of you. Look inside yourself; everything that you want, you are already that.”

2. Your job is to live your life in a way that makes sense to you, not to “them”.

“Start a huge, foolish project, like Noah…it makes absolutely no difference what people think of you.”

3. Never give up on yourself.

“When you go through a hard period, When everything seems to oppose you, … When you feel you cannot even bear one more minute, NEVER GIVE UP! Because it is the time and place that the course will divert!”

“Sorrow prepares you for joy. It violently sweeps everything out of your house, so that new joy can find space to enter. It shakes the yellow leaves from the bough of your heart, so that fresh, green leaves can grow in their place. It pulls up the rotten roots, so that new roots hidden beneath have room to grow. Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart, far better things will take their place.”

“Dance, when you’re broken open. Dance, if you’ve torn the bandage off. Dance in the middle of the fighting. Dance in your blood. Dance when you’re perfectly free.”

4. Ignorance is prison.

“Ignorance is God’s prison. Knowing is God’s palace.”

5. The treasures that can be found outside of you can’t even compare with the treasures that can be found inside of you.

“You wander from room to room Hunting for the diamond necklace That is already around your neck!”

“If you knew yourself for even one moment, if you could just glimpse your most beautiful face, maybe you wouldn’t slumber so deeply in that house of clay. Why not move into your house of joy and shine into every crevice! For you are the secret Treasure-bearer, and always have been. Didn’t you know?”

“Everything in the universe is within you. Ask all from yourself.”

“Why are you so enchanted by this world, when a mine of gold lies within you?”

“You go from village to village on your horse asking everyone, “Has anyone seen my horse?”

“Don’t knock on any random door like a beggar. Reach your long hand out to another door, beyond where you go on the street, the street where everyone says, “How are you?” and no one says How aren’t you?”

“There is a fountain inside you. Don’t walk around with an empty bucket.”

6. When you let go of who you are, you become who you might be.

“Knock, And He’ll open the door Vanish, And He’ll make you shine like the sun Fall, And He’ll raise you to the heavens Become nothing, And He’ll turn you into everything.”

“Forget safety. Live where you fear to live. Destroy your reputation. Be notorious.”

“Don’t be satisfied with stories, how things have gone with others. Unfold your own myth.”

“Set your life on fire. Seek those who fan your flames.”

“Be melting snow. Wash yourself of yourself.”

7. There is something you can do better than anyone else.

“Everyone has been made for some particular work, and the desire for that work has been put in every heart.”

“Be a lamp, or a lifeboat, or a ladder. Help someone’s soul heal. Walk out of your house like a shepherd.”

8. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.

“As you start to walk out on the way, the way appears.”

9. When you commit to something, do it with all your heart.

“Half-heartedness doesn’t reach into majesty. You set out to find God, but then you keep stopping for long periods at mean-spirited roadhouses.”

“When you do things from your soul you feel a river moving in you, a joy. When action come from another section, the feeling disappears.”

“Wherever you are, and whatever you do, be in love.”

10. Good things come to an end so that better things can fall together.

“Do not grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form.”

11. The wound is the place where the Light enters you.

“What hurts you, blesses you. Darkness is your candle.”

“Where there is ruin, there is hope for a treasure.”

“Don’t turn away. Keep your gaze on the bandaged place. That’s where the light enters you.”

“Grief can be the garden of compassion. If you keep your heart open through everything, your pain can become your greatest ally in your life’s search for love and wisdom.”

“You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens.”

12. Do what you love and do it with love.

“Let the beauty we love be what we do.”

“Let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of what you really love.”

“Be occupied, then, with what you really value and let the thief take something else.”

13. Think less. Feel more.

“Reason is powerless in the expression of Love.”

“Put your thoughts to sleep, do not let them cast a shadow over the moon of your heart. Let go of thinking.”

“Only from the heart can you touch the sky.”

“There is a candle in your heart, ready to be kindled. There is a void in your soul, ready to be filled. You feel it, don’t you?”

“Be empty of worrying. Think of who created thought! Why do you stay in prison When the door is so wide open?”

14. Love is worth it all.

“Gamble everything for love, if you’re a true human being. If not, leave this gathering.”

“Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy, absentminded. Someone sober will worry about events going badly. Let the lover be.”

15. Appreciate both the good and the bad in your life.

“Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.”

“If you are irritated by every rub, how will you be polished?”

“When someone beats a rug, the blows are not against the rug, but against the dust in it.”

16. You change your world by changing yourself.

“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.”

17. We are made of Love and made to Love.

“We are born of love; Love is our mother. “

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

“Through Love all that is bitter will be sweet, Through Love all that is copper will be gold, Through Love all dregs will become wine, through Love all pain will turn to medicine.”

“I have no companion but Love, no beginning, no end, no dawn. The Soul calls from within me: ‘You, ignorant of the way of Love, set Me free.’ “

“That which is false troubles the heart, but truth brings joyous tranquillity.”

18. Your Soul is not of this world, your body is.

“All day I think about it, then at night I say it. Where did I come from, and what am I supposed to be doing? I have no idea. My soul is from elsewhere, I’m sure of that, and I intend to end up there.”

“When I die, I shall soar with angels, and when I die to the angels, what I shall become you cannot imagine.”

19. At the Soul level, we are all ONE.

“All religions, all this singing, one song. The differences are just illusion and vanity. The sun’s light looks a little different on this wall than it does on that wall, and a lot different on this other one, but it’s still one light.”

“What shall I say, O Muslims, I know not myself, I am neither a Christian, nor a Jew, nor a Zoroastrian, nor a Muslim.”

“I am neither of the East nor of the West, no boundaries exist within my breast.”

20. Your Soul is more precious than anything.

“You know the value of every article of merchandise, but if you don’t know the value of your own soul, it’s all foolishness.”

21. Choose your life partner wisely.

“Take someone who doesn’t keep score, who’s not looking to be richer, or afraid of losing, who has not the slightest interest even in his own personality: he’s free.”

22. Real love transcends the material plane and no matter if your bodies are apart, your souls will forever be connected.

“Goodbyes are only for those who love with their eyes. Because for those who love with heart and soul there is no such thing as separation.”

23. Raise your words, not your voice.

“Raise your words, not voice. It is rain that grows flowers, not thunder.”

24. Silence is the language of the universe.

“Silence is the language of God, all else is poor translation.”

“Words are a pretext. It is the inner bond that draws one person to another, not words.”

“In Silence there is eloquence. Stop weaving and see how the pattern improves.”

25. Just to be alive is not enough.

“You think you are alive because you breathe air? Shame on you, that you are alive in such a limited way. Don’t be without Love, so you won’t feel dead. Die in Love and stay alive forever.”

Complied by Luminita Saviuc of PurposeFairy.com

Loosing the following – Absolutely

You are loosing your following – he said and I asked haider is it the case? And haider who was already in trance of pain dancing on the beat of loneliness shuddered his head and said that we all need to realise that it’s not about following or having a gathering around but few or to be precise very few around who could connect and reflect,  who could interpret the meanings of your replies like ‘Kuch nae’ or ‘Nothing’ or :), the one who actually cares rather then facebooking the bond, the one who doesn’t need the messages or calls as a prove of bond or for who the benchmark of relation is not how often we talk. . .  I have set people free because I realised that it’s my journey and I will automatically connect with pure souls rather then begging for those who are not even worth it. Before you worth others or love others take a deep breath identify yourself, value yourself and respect yourself 🙂

– Duaien

Haider speaks to Haider

Haider
Look you shouldn’t be tired you should take it all as the real life. Yes! If you aren’t on the ground you are no more important. If you loved people around selflessly and supported them that doesn’t mean they should stay, they will leave. The people who always said would stand, hardly will because it’s not about saying it’s about doing. Continue helping people around loving the one who desires teaching the one who needs despite being misinterpreted or taken forgranted or being used, this is how it goes, left alone by the one you love – world it is, continue loving not because who they are but because the one who made them deserves that the creature Must be loved. Haider it’s life and you have to learn that it’s not always about the stage but the shelf value of human. Learn and accept. Get up and fight because u burried ur mother and stood with courage, u made urself a brand when people use to laugh and u fought because u r the Warrior and warriors are meant to be this way. Adapt and Move.
Let the silence, ignorance and resilience be your mentors.

Much Love
Yours Haider

We are made strong to be broken again

– And she was sitting next to me and asking me with tired up eyes and a low tone ‘what did I do wrong?’ – and I could connect that yes people come as a strength when we are shattered and they make us feel that life is beautiful and whatsoever happened, happened for a reason. But at that very point when we believe them, they bring us to our knees and disappear – we were meant to be broken, because it is what makes us stronger, believe us that everything passes and time is the best cure. Medicine is bitter but the patient needs it. This entire process reconnect us and make us build strong walls around which are based on experiences. Ah! If that’s the case trust me sweetheart it’s worth it & then she got up, took me along from 8th floor we went for coffee at central station because thats the only place where meetup and departures teaches life – let it go & let it be God

Haider Miraj
08:52 p.m.
Glasgow 🙂 – Somewhere near Clyde